Recovering Alcoholic Judy Brown Friday, September 14, 2007 As a recovering (note I say recovering not recovered)Alcholic I feel I have "earned" the right to talk on this subject.I have not drank in thirteen years.But, I know that I can never drink as "social" drinkers do.By that I mean I can't go to a party and have one or two drinks. I tried that for many years.And, as the other guests at the party would laugh and enjoy all the fun chatter I would become more and more ( depending on what I cannot explain) angry or in some instances happy.As soon as I drank the first drink my mind and actions changed.I lost complete prespective on people, places and things. I spent many years embrassing my "ex"-husband.I laughed louder, talked more and talked over other people trying to converse with one another.And, most or many instances didn't know what I was saying or talking about.But, I was sure my thoughts were the only correct ones.And, only the next morning when told what I had done or said would the shame and embrassment come. And, jobs.I lost one because I couldn't get up in time to go.Which was probably good because I was a hairdresser and God only knows what I would have done to some poor woman's hair.Oh, and my favorite job, a dis-jockey.I became the favorite of some late night callers.Probably because they were also drunk or hung-over themselves.And, I even fooled the boss.He just loved me because everybody wanted to advertize in by on-air time since I was the number one "DJ" of my town.I probably would have died froma car accident or God forbid killed somebody else but for the fact that we moved to another state. And, that move gave me the right to drink. How dare my husband take a job in another state.I had two beautiful sons in full bloom of adiciton. But, somehow was blessed with two normal sons.One is now teaching at a college in Germany.He's givien a concert for the Queen of England and Prince Charles.And, done many oth... |